Life With Two Boys

Our hospital stay was great and I felt like my recovery this time was even better than with Hudson's birth.  I never had to take pain meds and I felt great!  We were definitely ready to get home and get life started as our new family of four!  In the hospital, Hudson had responded so well to Brazos. He wanted to hold him, kiss him, feed him his cookie, play iPhone games with him and just look at him.  It was so sweet! 

   But then, when we got home on Friday, things started to change a little bit.  He was still curious about the baby, but he was wanting to play with him like a 2-year-old would play, not like a 2-day-old would play.  That made this momma nervous!  We are having to keep a sharp eye on Hudson around Brazos, but I am hoping that he is making some progress towards adjusting.  Along with me being so emotional from hormonal changes, I just cried for no reason that first night.  I'd be smiling and then, I'd start crying.  I think most of it stemmed from the fact that I could tell that Hudson was confused and I was upset that he would no longer have the same world that he once had a few days before.  I was sad because I was hoping he would not take his confusion out on Brazos or us.  I wanted him to understand that he was still very loved and not being replaced by Brazos.  I'll be honest, I cried like a baby while I talked to Hudson about that. It is so hard, going from one baby to two. I now understand why people say it's more difficult to go from one to two kids than from two to three kids.  I will say that my heart is overflowing with love for my boys and I could not be more blessed to be their mommy.  I cannot wait until they start interacting with one another more and become best friends.  That's my prayer anyways.

  Since we have been home, we have enjoyed family and friends visiting.  We are adapting more daily to this new family of four idea! Brazos had a great first visit to the pediatrician and has been deemed a great eater (praise the Lord!) and is a completely breastfed baby at this point (which was also my prayer).  Please keep us in your prayers as we continue to adjust and grasp this new normal.